Drug addicts,alcoholics and other chemical abusers have a way of using the “Higher Power” references in the various 12-step programs as an excuse to avoid participating fully. More denial (one of my favorite words, and you are doubtless coming to know). I was going to write something about the Second Step, but then I ran across this essay on the Drinking Diaries blog. It mostly covers what I’d have to say, and is probably better than I’d have done.
“…The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” That pretty much sums up my relationship with alcohol, especially in the past 5 years. I’d drink moderately, then get drunk, then beat myself up, then quit drinking, then decide I could control it because I’d been able to stop, then start drinking again, then get drunk, then quit, then start all over. It was insane. I was insane.
But there was something about A.A.’s Second Step – the idea that I had to buy into this “Higher Power” thing in order to get sober — that made me a bit uncomfortable….